Cast of Characters: Filmmaker

The first guy I ever lived with. I made a ton of mistakes with this guy, the first being that I left Toby for him. I still don’t fully forgive myself for that. Filmmaker doesn’t speak to me anymore, not since we gave it a second try and I quickly realized that we were in different places, even more so then the first time we dated. Unfortunately I looked at his lifestyle choices and made some serious value judgments on them that were not completely fair. It was a gut reaction and I think a valid one in the sense that a part of me knew not to start up something with him again, but I didn’t listen and I ruined a potential friendship.

Cast of Characters: RobotBoy

Currently known as the latest guy to break my heart. They always say that you know when you meet him. And I knew. To this day, I know that he is a “one”, of course not the “one” for me, but still. He had no feelings for me, and to make matters worse, he said I wasn’t good enough for him. I had accepted him 100%, flaws and all. How exactly is someone like that not good enough for another person? It floors me each and every time I think about it. I would cry my eyes out if I wasn’t laughing so hard at the irony of it all. I call him Robotboy because he seemed to keep all of his feelings closed up inside real tight to the point that I couldn’t tell what he was feeling for the remaining weeks that we were dating when he grew distant. Today we’re friends but lately I can’t help but notice the nagging voice telling me to walk away if I’m going to hang on to my sanity.